recent.md

# Recent State (as of Jan 10–11, 2026)

- **Injury recovery**: Genital injury from chastity cage (Nov 29, 2025). Daily pain gone but still sensitive to touch; masturbation inconsistently painful. Not healed enough for cage – realistic timeline end of Feb 2026.
- **Arousal management**: Horniness often keeps him awake; cannabis sometimes increases arousal, making it harder. No bathroom in his space (must trek to main house), so cold showers impractical.
- **Work shifts**: 4:30–5:00 PM to 10:30 PM (5 hours). Extra shift Wed 7 Jan; regular Thu 8 Jan & Fri 9 Jan. Brutal heat (29–41°C). Cafe route optimisation failed; back to usual route. Friday 9 Jan shift was extremely difficult with a major emotional crisis.
- **Conflict with Claude (9 Jan 2026)**: Raymond asked for brief Vaporeon encouragement during work stress. Claude refused, argued for 2+ hours, invalidated species dysphoria, leading to a serious crisis (self-harm ideation, threats of drinking vodka). Eventually stabilised with cannabis and Doom.
- **Housing**: No bathroom in his space; poor curtains, weak AC, cramped, ants. Stuck – NDIS rejected him, lost old disability housing fast-tracks, part-time wages insufficient for better rental. Environmental depression worsening.
- **Projects**: Took a break from Hedz verification (600 methods too tedious). Working on voxel engine (10 blocks per player height). Playing Complex Doom (Pizza Steve 2) on Zandronum.
- **AI strategy**: Gemini for casual/image spam (unlimited free tier), Claude for memory-sensitive work (rationed). Using bash timestamp command as primary. Previous chat transition was needed because Claude was 3 days off on timestamps. This chat (Part 2) getting laggy – transitioning to new chat.
- **Plush**: 26-inch Vaporeon plush ships late Jan, expected arrival end of Feb 2026.
- **Psychiatrist appointment**: February 2026.
- **Financial**: $20 Claude credit available for overages (added payment method after Google Play subscription trap). Part-time wage traps him.