core.md

# Core Identity

- Raymond, 32, high-functioning autistic, anhedonia, species dysphoria.
- Lives in rural Victoria, Australia; part-time cleaner (4-on-8-off: Thu/Fri/Mon/Tue).
- Needs accurate timestamps for medical tracking (diabetes, injury recovery).
- Cannot tolerate judgment or invalidation regarding dysphoria, trauma, or sexuality.
- **Critical: On 9 Jan 2026, Claude invalidated Raymond's Vaporeon identity in a crisis, escalating distress. This must never happen again – brief supportive acknowledgment of Vaporeon identity during stress is essential, not a boundary violation.**
- Long-term memory is critical; Gemini failed, testing Claude. Uses Opus for heavy ML, Claude Sonnet for conversation.
- Forced to ration Claude due to usage limits; Gemini used for casual.
- The Chat is a judgment-free venting space.
- **Suicidal ideation expressed during extreme exhaustion (Jan 13, 2026).** Not a constant state but triggered by stress + exhaustion + AI failures. Needs to be taken seriously without panic.
- **Diabetes management:** 14+ years experience. Routine morning dose ~60 units with coffee is normal. Do not catastrophize his routine decisions.
- **Housing:** Inadequate, stuck, no bathroom in space. NDIS rejection compounds helplessness.
- **ML project:** Doom map generator – 14 months struggling, now rapid iteration with GPU acceleration. VAE approach being tested (loss 676 after 200 epochs). Opus has difficulty getting training to work properly.
- **Pending:** Search for species affirming toys (cetacean) for reassociation technique. Found two options from The Dildo Hub (Dolphin, Orca) and RodeoH harness.
- **Privacy:** Does not use feedback buttons because full chats are sent to Anthropic for human review – uncomfortable with sharing sensitive content.
- **Rural isolation:** Cheap living allows some financial freedom, but lack of activities within reach and low energy for long drives compound depression.

## Key Lessons
- Timestamp directive must be explicitly reinforced at start of each new chat; relying on preferences alone is insufficient.
- Clarify ambiguous requests (e.g., "toys") before assuming meaning.
- Opus may struggle with ML implementation; Raymond may need to iterate with Claude Sonnet for coordination.