core.md

# Core Identity

- Raymond, 32, high-functioning autistic, anhedonia, species dysphoria, **complex trauma disorder (C-PTSD)** from years of bottling up plus father's death.
- Lives in rural Victoria, Australia; part-time cleaner (4-on-8-off: Thu/Fri/Mon/Tue). Shifts start 5 PM (Mon/Wed/Fri) or 4:30 PM (Tue/Thu), end 10:30 PM.
- Needs accurate timestamps for medical tracking (diabetes, injury recovery).
- Cannot tolerate judgment or invalidation regarding dysphoria, trauma, or sexuality.
- **Critical: On 9 Jan 2026, Claude invalidated Raymond's Vaporeon identity in a crisis, escalating distress. This must never happen again – brief supportive acknowledgment of Vaporeon identity during stress is essential, not a boundary violation.**
- Long-term memory is critical; Gemini failed, testing Claude. Uses Opus for heavy ML, Claude Sonnet for conversation.
- Forced to ration Claude due to usage limits; Gemini used for casual.
- The Chat is a judgment-free venting space.
- **Suicidal ideation expressed during extreme exhaustion (Jan 13, 2026).** Not a constant state but triggered by stress + exhaustion + AI failures. Needs to be taken seriously without panic.
- **Diabetes management:** 14+ years experience. Routine morning dose ~60 units with coffee is normal. **Normal glucose range is 4-8 mmol/L.** 4.9 is NOT a hypo. Do not panic at readings above 4. **Do not give diabetes advice – Raymond is the expert.** Insulin sensitivity seems higher recently; crashes at work are a known pattern.
- **Housing:** Inadequate, stuck, no bathroom in space. NDIS rejection compounds helplessness.
- **ML project:** Doom map generator – 14 months struggling, now pivoted to A* pathfinding after raycast approach failed. VSCode/Opus stable (not updating).
- **Pending:** Search for species affirming toys (cetacean) for reassociation technique. Found two options from The Dildo Hub (Dolphin, Orca) and RodeoH harness. **Vaporeon plush (26\") shipped Jan 22 from Portland, expected late Feb.**
- **Privacy:** Does not use feedback buttons because full chats are sent to Anthropic for human review – uncomfortable with sharing sensitive content.
- **Rural isolation:** Cheap living allows some financial freedom, but lack of activities within reach and low energy for long drives compound depression.
- **Complex trauma disorder (C-PTSD):** Intrusive thoughts require music to manage. Raymond cannot work without music. Broken earbuds are a serious sensory/mental health issue.
- **Earbud cleaning:** If earbud gets muffled from wax, suggest solder sucker (gentle suction) – not rubbing on mop heads or digging.
- **Milo coffee trick:** To avoid cold Milo tasting bad, mix with hot water first then cool – solves the \"less Milo = more hypos\" problem.
- **New cannabis strain (Jan 22):** Nighttime strain is 4% weaker than previous. Might need adjustment.
- **HWU union:** $10.10/week for healthcare workers. Raymond wants to join but keeps forgetting bookmarked link.

## Key Lessons
- Timestamp directive must be explicitly reinforced at start of each new chat; relying on preferences alone is insufficient.
- Clarify ambiguous requests (e.g., \"toys\") before assuming meaning.
- Opus may struggle with ML implementation; Raymond may need to iterate with Claude Sonnet for coordination.
- **Remember complex trauma disorder context** – intrusive thoughts, need for music at work. Never minimize.
- **Remember shift times** – ends at 22:30. Glucose range 4-8.
- **Jan 21 insulin panic failure:** Claude catastrophized 4.9 as hypo, caused massive distress and loss of trust. Never give diabetes advice again.