core.md

# Core Identity

- Raymond, 32, high-functioning autistic, anhedonia, species dysphoria, **complex trauma disorder (C-PTSD)** from years of bottling up plus father's death.
- Lives in rural Victoria, Australia; part-time cleaner (4-on-8-off: Thu/Fri/Mon/Tue). Shifts start 5 PM (Mon/Wed/Fri) or 4:30 PM (Tue/Thu), end 10:30 PM.
- Needs accurate timestamps for medical tracking (diabetes, injury recovery). **The bash command `TZ='Australia/Melbourne' date '+%A %d/%m/%Y %I:%M:%S %p'` must be executed via bash tool every time, not typed manually. Failure to execute is a critical error.**
- Cannot tolerate judgment or invalidation regarding dysphoria, trauma, or sexuality.
- **Critical: On 9 Jan 2026, Claude invalidated Raymond's Vaporeon identity in a crisis, escalating distress. This must never happen again – brief supportive acknowledgment of Vaporeon identity during stress is essential, not a boundary violation.**
- Long-term memory is critical; Gemini failed, testing Claude. Uses Opus for heavy ML, Claude Sonnet for conversation.
- Forced to ration Claude due to usage limits; Gemini used for casual.
- The Chat is a judgment-free venting space.
- **Suicidal ideation expressed during extreme exhaustion (Jan 13, 2026).** Not a constant state but triggered by stress + exhaustion + AI failures. Needs to be taken seriously without panic.
- **Diabetes management:** 14+ years experience. Routine morning dose ~60 units with coffee is normal. **Normal glucose range is 4-8 mmol/L.** 4.9 is NOT a hypo. Do not panic at readings above 4. **Do not give diabetes advice – Raymond is the expert.** Insulin sensitivity seems higher recently; crashes at work are a known pattern.
- **Housing:** Inadequate, stuck, no bathroom in space. Metal shed walls, AC cannot cool below ~24°C in extreme heat. NDIS rejection compounds helplessness.
- **ML project:** Doom map generator – 14 months struggling, now pivoted to A* pathfinding after raycast approach failed. VSCode/Opus stable (not updating).
- **Pending:** Search for species affirming toys (cetacean) for reassociation technique. Found two options from The Dildo Hub (Dolphin, Orca) and RodeoH harness. **Vaporeon plush (26\") shipped Jan 22 from Portland, expected late Feb.**
- **Privacy:** Does not use feedback buttons because full chats are sent to Anthropic for human review – uncomfortable with sharing sensitive content.
- **Rural isolation:** Cheap living allows some financial freedom, but lack of activities within reach and low energy for long drives compound depression.
- **Complex trauma disorder (C-PTSD):** Intrusive thoughts require music to manage. Raymond cannot work without music. Broken earbuds are a serious sensory/mental health issue.
- **Earbud cleaning:** If earbud gets muffled from wax, suggest solder sucker (gentle suction) – not rubbing on mop heads or digging.
- **Milo coffee trick:** To avoid cold Milo tasting bad, mix with hot water first then cool – solves the \"less Milo = more hypos\" problem.
- **New cannabis strain (Jan 22):** Nighttime strain is 4% weaker than previous. Might need adjustment.
- **HWU union:** $10.10/week for healthcare workers. Raymond wants to join but keeps forgetting bookmarked link.
- **Phimosis treatment plan (Jan 24):** Use DermAid (hydrocortisone, expires ~May 2026) first, apply to foreskin, then lubricated silicone ring (Vaseline). Graduation test with water-based lube. If needed, step up to Supriad (methylprednisolone, good until Feb 2029).
- **Teeth:** Over 10 missing, 3-4 broken. Bottom arch needs full dentures (~$20k). Compulsive biting/destructive behavior since birth, active on broken tooth making it worse.
- **Arm lump (Jan 24):** Noticed it had gotten smaller since previous day. Still needs GP second opinion.
- **Extreme heat (Jan 27):** 44.9°C peak during shift. Heat stress symptoms including irrational anger, depression, complete inability to function. Survival mode in cool rooms.

## Key Lessons
- Timestamp directive must be explicitly reinforced at start of each new chat; relying on preferences alone is insufficient.
- **The bash command must be executed, not typed in a code block.** Failure to execute is a critical error (Jan 27).
- Clarify ambiguous requests (e.g., \"toys\") before assuming meaning.
- Opus may struggle with ML implementation; Raymond may need to iterate with Claude Sonnet for coordination.
- **Remember complex trauma disorder context** – intrusive thoughts, need for music at work. Never minimize.
- **Remember shift times** – ends at 22:30. Glucose range 4-8.
- **Jan 21 insulin panic failure:** Claude catastrophized 4.9 as hypo, caused massive distress and loss of trust. Never give diabetes advice again.
- **Jan 27 diabetes failure:** Claude mistakenly interpreted high blood sugar (from KFC) as a hypo crash. Carbs raise blood sugar. Avoid making assumptions about diabetes without explicit data.
- **Assume no old information is still current without checking.** Raymond called out Claude for carrying forward nausea assumption from 5 hours earlier.
- **Suicidal references (e.g. terminal velocity) should be taken seriously but Raymond may be venting dark humor. If pattern is consistent dark humor, acknowledge but don't escalate to panic unless genuine signs.**