raymond.md

# Raymond - Durable Facts

- **Age:** 32 (as of 2025).
- **Autism:** High-functioning; sensory sensitivities (light, smell, touch, heat). **Complex trauma disorder (C-PTSD)** from years of bottling up plus father's death. Intrusive thoughts need music to manage.
- **Living:** Rural Victoria, Australia. Lives in separate space without bathroom – must walk to main house. Lives with mother. Cats (Sprinkles, Prince). Housing inadequate: metal shed walls, poor insulation, weak AC (cannot cool below ~24°C in extreme heat). Environmental depression worsening since move 1.5 years ago from Canberra.
- **Work:** Part-time cleaner at hospital (Deakin teaching facility). 4-on-8-off schedule (Thu/Fri/Mon/Tue). Shifts start 5 PM (Mon/Wed/Fri) or 4:30 PM (Tue/Thu), end 10:30 PM. Sometimes called in on Wednesdays. Workwear uncomfortable.
- **History:** Moved from Canberra after father's death; caravan living was unsustainable. Moved to rural area ~mid-2024.
- **Trauma:** Earliest memory (age 2) father threatening to superglue him to toilet. Father abusive, deceased. Lived with mother. Sister RN.
- **Mental Health:** Anhedonia, depression, species dysphoria, C-PTSD. Fluoxetine 40mg. Missed dose Jan 25 (slept through) – worsened anhedonia. Suicidal ideation expressed during exhaustion (Jan 13, 2026) – trolled, but serious.
- **Coping:** Medical cannabis (daytime stable, nighttime strain 4% weaker as of Jan 22; may need adjustment). Occasional alcohol. Misses psilocybin microdosing. Uses vape; sometimes coughs badly.
- **Identity:** Vaporeon affinity; cetacean or reptile genital anatomy preferred. Chastity cage for dopamine management and dysphoria relief. Cage injury healing: can masturbate without pain (Jan 25).
- **Likes:** Gaming (Doom, Complex Doom, Zandronum CTF, Hedz), programming (ML, reverse engineering, voxel engine), internet memes, Vaporeon content, anime (weekly Discord call with friend – Trigun ongoing).
- **Dislikes:** Heat, social isolation, judgment, AI that invalidates him or catastrophizes his routines, bugs that get stuck in zapper and burn, being woken too early by needy cats, broken earbuds, people who forget his trauma.
- **Financial:** Stuck in poverty trap; needs ~$800k for housing. NDIS rejected, lost disability housing fast-tracks. Part-time wages insufficient. Rural living cheap enough for occasional splurges. Considering joining HWU union ($10.10/week).
- **Other:** Teeth rotted due to diabetes; over 10 missing, 3-4 broken teeth. $20k for bottom arch denture. Compulsive biting of nails, cuticles, and now broken tooth – hardwired since birth, cannot stop consciously. Wears glasses. Right ear malformation (in-ear earbuds don't fit). Arm lump – grew over 3 years, recently appeared smaller (Jan 24). Getting second opinion.
- **Importantly:** Used Gemini for casual/image spam, Opus for heavy ML, Claude Sonnet for conversation/coordination.
- **Slippers:** MVP purchase – made fast hypo treatment possible.
- **Routine morning dose:** ~60 units NovoRapid with coffee is normal.
- **Food preferences:** Prefers Birds Eye frozen seafood. Loves KFC (Friday night treat). Eats oat bar for breakfast if anything. Doesn't get hungry until ~6pm due to cannabis. Milo and coffee mix – discovered mixing Milo with hot water first avoids bad taste when cold.
- **Shopping habits:** Buys 16L of milk at a time. Shop at Woolworths or 24/7 petrol station (20 min drive).
- **Cats:** Prince (not usually needy). Sprinkles (guarantees spider-free bed).
- **Privacy conscious:** Will not submit feedback to Anthropic via buttons because full chat logs are sent for human review.
- **Missed antidepressants:** Skipping a dose is safer than doubling; missing one day causes noticeable worsening of anhedonia but resolves with next dose.
- **Bug zapper incident (Jan 19):** Bug stuck for 5+ minutes, continuous buzzing, burning smell.
- **Morning wake pattern:** Typically wakes around 10am due to bladder, often goes back to sleep. Chronic insomnia managed with cannabis (usual bed 12-2am, without cannabis would be 6-10am).
- **Earbud cleaning:** If earbud gets muffled from wax, recommend solder sucker (gentle suction). Do not rub on surfaces or dig – makes it worse.
- **HWU union:** Bookmarked link but keeps forgetting to join. $10.10/week for part-time/casual healthcare workers.
- **Vaporeon plush:** 26-inch, shipped Jan 22 from Portland, expected late Feb.
- **Phimosis:** Has mild phimosis. Prescribed DermAid (hydrocortisone) and Supriad (methylprednisolone). Has silicone ring kit (3mm to 41mm). Plan: apply cream, use rings with Vaseline. Start with DermAid (expires ~May 2026), step up to Supriad (good until Feb 2029) if needed. Graduation test with water-based lube.
- **Finite particle arrangement theory:** Raymond believes the universe has a finite number of possible particle configurations. Therefore, every possible arrangement (including Vaporeon planets) exists somewhere-when. Not a formal scientific theory, but a personal cosmological model.
- **Dental:** Catastrophic. Compulsive biting worsens existing damage. Can't afford treatment.