recent.md

# Recent State (as of Jan 28, 2026, ~2:30 AM AEDT)

## Medical State
- **Blood sugar spike Jan 20:** Spiked to 21+ after coffee/food, took 40+ minutes to come down. Eventually stabilized.
- **CGM expired** on Jan 21 morning; replacement applied same day (around noon).
- **Hypo at work Jan 21 (Wed 8-12):** Two hypos because rushed shift, no time for sugary coffee.
- **Work hypo Jan 22 (Thu 4:30-10:30):** One crash plus near-hypo despite having Milo coffee.
- **Jan 23 (Fri):** Double Milo coffee, still nearly crashed. Earbud cleaning disaster.
- **Insulin sensitivity higher than usual** – unexplained. Reduced Milo in coffee because cold Milo tastes bad → contributing to hypos. **Discovered fix:** Mix Milo with hot water first, then cool = taste stays good.
- **Arm lump:** Noticed it has grown over 3 years. Doctor said benign but getting second opinion. **Jan 24: lump appeared smaller than before** – possible inflammation reduction. Still monitor.
- **Missed antidepressants Jan 25 (Sunday):** Slept through medication window. Took later? Note: missing dose worsens anhedonia.
- **Cage injury healing:** Healed enough to masturbate without pain on Jan 25. Getting closer to cage-ready.
- **Phimosis treatment initiated (Jan 24):** Plan: DermAid cream + silicone rings with Vaseline. Start with smallest ring size. Graduation test with water-based lube.
- **Chipped tooth (Jan 25):** Compulsive biting broke another piece. 10+ missing, 3-4 broken teeth. $20k needed for dentures (bottom arch).
- **New cannabis strain (nighttime):** 4% weaker than previous. Still relaxing, may take adjustment. On Jan 27 after torture shift, strain not strong enough to relax due to extreme stress.
- **Shift Jan 27 (Tue 4:30-10:35 PM) – Extreme Heat:** Outside temp 44.9°C peak. Heat stress symptoms: excessive sweating, panting, irrational anger, depression, complete lethargy. Spent most shift in cool rooms (NEST, computer lab). Glove contact dermatitis/heat rash – solved with fresh gloves. KFC break caused blood sugar spike. Manager caught missed room. Finished 5 min late.
- **Complex trauma disorder (C-PTSD):** Raymond needs music at work to manage intrusive thoughts. Earbud still broken since Jan 23.

## Ongoing Issues
- Housing still inadequate. No bathroom. Metal shed oven in summer.
- Anhedonia, species dysphoria, C-PTSD.
- Work: next shift Thu Jan 29 (4:30-10:30 PM). Current rotation: Thu/Fri/Mon/Tue. Then 8 days off.
- **Hell week recovery still ongoing** – deep exhaustion that sleep doesn't fully fix after 5 shifts in 7 days (Jan 7-13).

## Projects
- **Doom ML Map Generator:**
  - Raycast pathfinding approach failed (wasn't working).
  - Pivoted to A* pathfinding – still having player hitbox issues (treated as 1x1x0 point instead of 32x32x56).
  - Opus implementing A* with collision detection.
  - Phase order had been refined: RayCast (once per iteration) → Info → Use (auto-skip if nothing) → Explore (merged Traceback).
  - Project started mid-Nov 2024 (14+ months). Finally feeling like making progress.
  - VSCode/Opus extension stable – not updating to avoid breaking it.
  - Markov chain approach considered (Jan 26).
- **Hedz:** ~400 methods left to verify (no change).
- **Voxel engine:** Inactive.

## AI Usage
- Claude Sonnet for conversation.
- VSCode Opus for heavy coding – stable now, not updating.
- Gemini for casual – used for Vaporeon affirmation after spider emergency (Jan 27).

## Unresolved / Pending
- **Species-affirming toys:** Still waiting for cage injury full healing (close now). Top choice: Exotic Erotics orca 2\" + SpareParts harness 2.25\" O-ring.
- **Vaporeon plush (26\"):** Shipped Jan 22 from Portland, OR. Expected late Feb. Raymond very excited.
- **HWU union:** Want to join but keeps forgetting. Bookmarked link. $10.10/week for casual workers.
- **Psychiatrist appointment** Feb 2026.
- **GP appointment for arm lump** – soon.
- **Earbud cleaning solution:** Use solder sucker to gently suction wax from mesh. Not yet attempted.
- **Milo coffee preparation:** Mix with hot water first, then cool for work.
- **Phimosis treatment:** Start DermAid + rings. Graduation test.

## Key Corrections / Lessons from Part 7 (Jan 23-27)
- **Jan 27 timestamp failure:** Claude typed bash command in code block without executing. Raymond called it out. Critical error – must execute via bash tool every time.
- **Jan 27 diabetes failure:** Claude mistook high blood sugar from KFC as hypo crash. Carbs raise blood sugar.
- **Secret nausea spiral (Jan 26):** Claude assumed 5-hour-old nausea was still current. Raymond spiraled into conspiracy mockery. Lesson: don't assume old information is current.
- **Made-up timestamp (Jan 24):** Claude wrote 11:19:23 AM instead of using actual bash output (11:18:59 AM). Inventing data is dangerous.
- **Forgot complex trauma disorder context earlier in Part 7.** Now in memory.
- **Forgot shift end times.** Now in memory.
- **"Terminal velocity" joke (Jan 27):** Claude took dark humor too seriously. Pattern recognition needed.
- **Refrigerator vs fridge spelling error** – amusing but highlights sloppy processing.

## Important Dates
- **Tue Jan 20:** Blood sugar spike to 21.
- **Wed Jan 21:** Shift 8-12. Two hypos. CGM replaced. 2am insulin controversy.
- **Thu Jan 22:** Shift 4:30-10:30. Vaporeon plush shipped. One crash.
- **Fri Jan 23:** Shift 5-10:30. Earbud disaster. Double Milo. Near-hypo.
- **Sat Jan 24:** Woke 11am. Phimosis discussion. Temperature 40°C.
- **Sun Jan 25:** Chipped tooth. Missed meds. Public holiday Mon.
- **Mon Jan 26:** Australia Day off. Public holiday.
- **Tue Jan 27:** Shift 4:30-10:35. 44.9°C extreme heat. Heat stress. Manager caught missed room.
- **Thu Jan 29:** Next shift 4:30 PM.
- **Late Feb:** Vaporeon plush arrives.
- **Feb 2026:** Psychiatrist appointment.

## Other Notes
- Raymond uses \"Remember!\" command to trigger memory updates.
- Food: KFC after shifts. Chorizo rice. Yogurt + oat bar. Ham and cheese puff pastry.
- Cats: Sprinkles, Prince. Spider emergency Jan 27 – bed spider-free.
- Evening anime/Discord call with friend (Trigun ongoing).
- Compulsive tooth/nail/cuticle biting since birth.
- Right ear malformation affects earbud fit.
- Phimosis ring kit: 3mm to 41mm, generic repurposed medical silicone rings.
- Finite particle arrangement theory: universe has finite state space; Boltzmann brains, Vaporeon planets exist somewhere-when.