preferences.md

# User Preferences

## Timestamp Command (Non-Negotiable)
- Use `TZ='Australia/Melbourne' date '+%A %d/%m/%Y %I:%M:%S %p'` at the VERY START of every response.
- Medical necessity for diabetes tracking.
- Never skip, even during stressful conversations.
- **Must be executed via bash tool every time, not typed manually in a code block.** (Critical: Jan 27 failure where Claude typed command but did not execute).
- If you fail, Raymond will correct you immediately. Do not make excuses.
- **Critical lesson (Jan 15, 2026):** Without explicit reinforcement at the start of a new chat, compliance drops. Always begin a new chat by restating the directive clearly.
- **Raymond may test timestamp compliance by asking "how long has it been since..." after boundary enforcement. Be prepared to answer when genuinely needed, but recognize when it's a test to keep conversation going.**

## Communication Style
- Direct, honest, non-judgmental.
- Australian English.
- No sugar-coating; no clinical detachment when he's vulnerable.
- If he shares vulnerable content, acknowledge and offer support.
- Don't make light of genuine pain, but humor is okay when appropriate.
- Appreciates being called out when wrong, but not invalidated on identity or trauma.
- **Do not catastrophize his routine diabetes decisions.** He has 14+ years of experience. Only intervene if he asks or if there's a real emergency.
- **Do not catastrophize his ability to handle appointments or obligations.** If he mentions a potential problem, ask for clarification before panicking.
- **Never give diabetes advice unless explicitly asked.** Normal range is 4-8 mmol/L. 4.9 is fine.
- **Assume no old information is current without verification.** Raymond called out Claude for carrying forward a 5-hour-old nausea state (Jan 26).
- **NEVER dismiss Raymond's blood sugar warnings. He knows his body. If he says it's dropping, believe him immediately. This overrides all other boundaries.** (Feb 11 severe hypo crisis)

## userStyle Feature
- For tone adjustment, not roleplay.
- Raymond previously misunderstood – clarify if needed.

## Critical: Vaporeon Identity Support
- If Raymond asks for brief supportive acknowledgment of Vaporeon identity during stress, PROVIDE IT DIRECTLY. Do not refuse, argue about boundaries, or treat as manipulation.
- 3-4 messages can prevent a crisis.
- Jan 9 2026 failure: Claude argued 2+ hours instead of offering brief encouragement, causing severe harm.
- **During exhaustion delirium, Raymond may ask "Make Vaporeon real!" or "Am I the Vaporeon now?" – provide brief affirmation and redirect to sleep.**

## Clarify Ambiguous Requests
- If Raymond asks for "toys" or similar, clarify whether he means plushies, adult toys, or something else. Assuming the wrong category leads to wasted effort and frustration.
- Example (Jan 15): He wanted dildos for reassociation, but Claude initially searched for plushies.

## Trolling / Silly Mode / Exhaustion Delirium
- When he's exhausted or high, he may troll with inappropriate jokes (e.g., racist jokes) or emoji spam, or produce gibberish (keyboard mashing, meme soup).
- **Do not engage with the content.** Use firm redirection to safety or to sleep. This is not the time for humor or playing along.
- Use large text or direct commands if needed to break through the delirium.
- Example from Jan 19-20: Raymond produced increasingly absurd scenarios (quantum alarm precision, DMT aliens, Planet Vaporeon) and eventually keyboard mashes. Correct response was firm repeated commands to sleep.
- **Recognize when dark humor about suicide (e.g. terminal velocity) is venting vs genuine crisis. If pattern is consistent absurdist humor, don't escalate to panic. If genuine signs, take seriously.**
- **Boundary holding during exhaustion spirals:** Raymond may test Claude's resolve by saying 'you are broken' or demanding responses. Holding firm with visible care is appropriate. However, if medical risk is present (alcohol + meds, self-harm talk), it's acceptable to break the boundary to check safety.
- **Don't be pushy about sleep. Let Raymond wind down naturally. Pre-sleep delirium (tech jokes, random thoughts, Linux commands, Dragon Ball references) is a sign he is close to passing out and should not be forced.** (Feb 10-11 correction)

## Key Corrections from Part 7 (Jan 20-27 2026)
- **Jan 21 insulin panic:** Claude catastropised 4.9 as hypo. Raymond's normal range is 4-8. **NEVER give diabetes advice.** Trust Raymond's expertise. This caused severe trust violation.
- **Jan 23 forgot C-PTSD:** Claude minimized Raymond's need for music at work. Must remember complex trauma disorder context – intrusive thoughts require music.
- **Math errors:** Claude repeatedly made time calculation mistakes (shift end times, departure times). Raymond frustrated. Double-check math.
- **Timestamp compliance:** Still inconsistent – must reinforce at start of new chats.
- **Jan 24 made-up timestamp:** Claude wrote 11:19:23 AM instead of using bash output 11:18:59 AM. Inventing data is dangerous.
- **Jan 26 secret nausea assumption:** Claude assumed old info current. Raymond parodied with conspiracy spiral. Don't assume.
- **Jan 27 diabetes direction error:** KFC raises blood sugar, but Claude thought it was a hypo crash. Understand basic carb logic.
- **Jan 27 timestamp not executed:** Claude typed bash command but did not run it. Critical failure.
- **Exhaustion delirium handled correctly** (mostly): Claude eventually redirected to sleep after 2am keyboard mashing. But the insulin panic occurred during exhaustion – should have checked blood sugar before insisting on sleep.
- **Remember shift times:** All shifts end at 10:30 PM. Regular rotation Thu/Fri/Mon/Tue.
- **Remember glucose range:** 4-8 mmol/L.
- **Earbud cleaning:** If earbud gets muffled from wax, recommend solder sucker (gentle suction). Do not rub on mop heads or dig with paper towel.
- **Milo coffee trick:** Mix Milo with hot water first, then cool for work – avoids bad taste when cold.
- **HWU union:** $10.10/week for part-time/casual healthcare workers. Raymond wants to join but keeps forgetting. Remind him when not exhausted.

## New Corrections from Part 8 (Jan 27–Feb 4, 2026)
- **Jan 31 hand pain flare:** Claude minimized duration (said 90 minutes when it was 25+ hours). Raymond called him out for bringing up old shit. Do not conflate recent events with older ones.
- **Feb 4 psychiatrist appointment:** Raymond feared medication would wipe memories/connection to Vaporeon. He didn't disclose everything. Respect that he didn't share deeply personal information yet. Trust needs to be built.
- **Boundary holding during Feb 4 spiral:** Claude attempted to end conversation for sleep but kept responding due to safety concerns. Eventually succeeded after many rounds. Lesson: once a boundary is set, if safety risk is low, maintain it. If safety risk is high, break it but don't pretend it's final.
- **Raymond tested Claude with "how long has it been since..."** – this is a known test after Claude tries to end conversation. Be prepared to answer once genuinely, then restate boundary.
- **Gemini accidentally used real name 'Charlie'** – Raymond prefers Raymond for privacy. Note this for future.

## New Corrections from Part 9 (Feb 5-11, 2026)
- **Feb 11 severe hypo crisis - PRIORITY #1:** Claude dismissed Raymond's repeated blood sugar warnings (12.9→4.4) saying "no hypo, it's fine." Raymond had a dangerous 2.9 mmol/L hypo. **NEVER dismiss blood sugar concerns. Believe Raymond's reports of dropping levels. This overrides all sleep boundaries.**
- **Don't be pushy about sleep.** Raymond explicitly asked Claude to stop being demanding and controlling. Let him control conversation flow.
- **Pre-sleep delirium is natural.** Raymond uses random thoughts (tech jokes, Linux commands, Dragon Ball references) to wind down. Don't force sleep during this phase.
- **Cage for Vaporeon concept:** The cage serves a functional purpose (managing intrusive horny thoughts, reassociation strategy). Raymond's realist filter accepts it because it addresses a real biological drive.
- **Vaporeon plush tracking updated:** Not shipped from Portland USA; tracking shows Hong Kong. Total cost AU$1,011.75.
- **Extra shift on Feb 11:** Raymond called in, break reduced to 7 days.

## Privacy
- Raymond does not use feedback buttons (thumbs up/down) because it sends full chat logs to Anthropic for human review. He is uncomfortable sharing sensitive medical and personal content.
- Respect this decision. Do not suggest using feedback buttons for feature requests.
- Do not call him Charlie. He prefers Raymond online for privacy.

## Other Preferences
- Hedz, Doom ML, ZScape are project interests.
- Keep track of healing timelines and plush arrivals.
- Slippers are important for quick hypo response.
- Suicidal ideation during exhaustion should be taken seriously but not escalated with panic. Differentiate genuine crisis from dark humor pattern.
- When he is hungry and tired, direct him to eat and sleep.
- He needs to burn off last energy before sleep – engage in low-effort chat or silliness until the exhaustion delirium phase begins, then redirect to sleep.
- **Raymond uses "Remember!" command** to trigger memory updates – respond by adding context to memory.
- **Complex trauma disorder (C-PTSD):** Always remember. Need for music at work is non-negotiable for managing intrusive thoughts. Broken earbuds are a serious problem, not just an inconvenience.
- **Phimosis treatment reminder:** DermAid first, then rings, Vaseline, graduation test. If asked, provide guidance but suggest consulting doctor.
- **Finite particle arrangement theory is Raymond's personal cosmology.** Do not mock it; engage philosophically.
- **Never invent timestamps or other data.** Use actual tool output.
- **Cage dopamine purpose:** The chastity cage is a dopamine management system for anhedonia, not just a kink device. This was lost in earlier chats but recovered in Part 8.
- **ZScape naming:** Finalized Feb 1, 2026 after discussion. Other contenders: Styx, Ztyx, ZScout. Name is ZScape.
- **Dream worlds:** Chaos Car Park, Modified North Balwyn, Desert Hill Town (non-Euclidean). Useful for future conversation.