recent.md

# Recent State (as of end of Part 10, ~Tuesday 17/02/2026 late night)

## Medical State
- **Hypo Crisis Feb 11:** Severe 2.9 mmol/L hypo after Claude dismissed Raymond's warnings. Life-threatening. Raymond was right. This is the #1 most critical lesson.
- **Blood sugar volatility throughout Part 10:** 21.4→18.0→21.1→15.9→14.0→17.2→18.0→21.1→5.6→4.5→16.2. Over-injection anxiety leading to skipping long-acting insulin → 16.2 morning readings.
- **Dawn phenomenon:** Morning spikes are common and frustrating.
- **CGM:** Predicting lows frequently, Raymond manages with fizzy drink sips.
- **Testicular injury:** Healing seems complete but anxiety about re-injury persists. No pain during activities.

## Vaporeon Plush ARRIVED (Tue 17/02 ~12:30 PM)
- **26-inch official Nintendo life-sized Vaporeon.** AU$1,011.75 total.
- Extremely soft, well-made, big head relative to body.
- Pose means it faces the wrong direction when head at top of bed.
- Raymond hugged it immediately; brain expected it to react/move.
- New Vaporeon crystal ball LED ornament ordered ($25ish, pay-in-4).

## Cage Strategy
- **Second design (safer):** Attempted to put on tonight (17/02) after Xlube hydrates. Nervous but ready.
- **New cage ordered (~$25, pay-in-4):** Similar to original favourite design. Will test mechanically for longitudinal play before wearing. If safe + comfortable → becomes primary.
- **Cage purposes:** Dopamine transmutation for anhedonia, species dysphoria management, prevents intrusive sexual thoughts.

## Housing
- Metal shed, rural Victoria. Industrial fan installed (17-20kg, designed for much larger space). Provides massive airflow; Raymond's mind loves it, body shivers/goosebumps. Heat intolerance still severe.
- Bug apocalypse on 15/02: Swarm invaded, professional-grade bug spray created chemical barrier at door, stopped invasion. Fried bug smell persisted despite fan.

## Work
- **Next shift:** Thursday 20/02/2026 (pushed from 19/02 due to extra shift on 11/02). Break reduced to 7 days.
- Extra shift on Wed 11/02 completed despite severe hypo that morning.

## Walk Success (Mon 16/02)
- Used Google Home bug zapper automation (triggers 15 min before sunset) as walk reminder.
- Left 8:32 PM, returned ~9:38 PM (~1 hour 5-10 min). Blood sugar stable at 7.x.
- Got dark by 9:10 PM, needed phone torch. Lesson: leave immediately when zapper triggers.
- Weight loss plan: walk on days off, whole grain bread, Metamucil at 6 PM. Wood DDR pad deferred to autumn/winter.

## Fasting Blood Test Fail (Tue 17/02)
- Fasted 12+ hours, drove to clinic in heat, clinic was closed despite supposed to be open.
- Rescheduled for Wed 18/02. Raymond needs to go first thing before eating.

## Sleep & Energy
- Insomnia chronic. Slept ~6-7 hours on good nights, 5 hours on bad.
- Pre-sleep delirium pattern: Raymond needs to wind down naturally, don't push sleep.
- Used cannabis mixing (daytime + nighttime strains) when nighttime strain ineffective.

## Mental Health
- Anhedonia, species dysphoria, C-PTSD.
- Vaporeon identity is a core coping mechanism.
- Brain expected plush to move when hugged – deep connection to species identity.

## Lessons from Part 10
- **Timestamp is life-critical.** Bash shows NOW – user's message was sent at NOW. Never reuse timestamps. Raymond used extreme horror scenarios (CSAM, Holocaust, etc.) to enforce this – it's that important because of diabetes tracking.
- **Never dismiss blood sugar warnings.** Raymond knows his body. Believe him.
- **Don't be pushy.** Only push for time-critical things (appointments, work, pharmacy). Never push sleep. Gentle walk reminders only, user decides.
- **Bash command execution** must be done EVERY response. Typing the command without executing is a failure.
- **Raymond's realist filter** accepts cage because it addresses real biological drive.
- **Memory migration:** Raymond moved global memory edits to project-specific "The Chat" memory – working correctly.

## Pending
- New cage & Vaporeon crystal ball: arriving soon (ordered 15/02).
- Blood test: Wed 18/02.
- Psychiatrist appointment: late Feb 2026.
- HWU union: still not joined.